NightAngelX
Would rather be at WDW
- Joined
- Jun 23, 2012
I had my FIRST trip to Walt Disney World as an adult at age 31 just last August. I loved it. I was so happy I cried. It was wonderful. DH has severe arthritis and while he doesn't use an ECV irl, he used one at WDW. I never thought he'd be able to survive the trip or enjoy it. It is the main reason I didn't pick WDW for a honeymoon I thought he'd never be able to physically do it. But thankfully with ECVs and a magical place he did great!
I, on the other hand hurt, badly the very first day! The only thing that kept me going all week was just pure inner joy. My limbs ached, my toes were blistered and every muscle in my body begged for me to just stop and sit down. But I found when I did give in and stop and sit down it made it all the harder to get up again. So while I still loved WDW and can't wait to go back. I know one thing. I must get in shape before I go again!
My entire life my weight has yo-yoed. I remember I started 'dieting' in the 2nd grade when my mom thought it was a good idea for me to start having diet soda with my happy meal. lol She was anorexic so hardly a model of health and I tended to do the opposite of whatever she did thus my issue with eating began. I used to go between 150s to 200 alot up and down. I was 130s-140s for a bit in high school but not long. I usually stalled out about 170s or 160s, get frustrated and eat my way back up to almost 200.
Then I met my DH.
I was 170s at the time....still aiming for that 'healthy weight' of 145. But DH was a big guy and he liked to eat and he liked to eat out. After our first date we spent every dinner together for several months and 95% of the time it was at a restaurant or fast food. I quickly gained weight. We married less than 2 years after and I was in the lower 200s I think (i was too afraid to step on a scale). by our first anniversary I had topped out at 240 and he was over 400 lbs! Never in our life had we weighed so much. We knew we had to do something. Dh decided to do Atkins. I decided to do what I do best, calorie count. We both lost quite a bit of weight in the next year. DH got down to 295 and I was in 190s. DH never once said I needed to lose weight. He thinks I am beautiful just the way I am. He still insists I do not need to lose weight. 
Then in 2011/2012 I went through several infertility treatments. After a year of treatments, hormones, pain and disappointment I was back in 220s and devastated. IVF is our only option going forward and I can't bear to face it again. I chose to go to WDW last year to try and 'get over' the ectopic and all the 'failures' so that we could 'try again'.
Well Disney was wonderful but I'm still not ready to try again and I doubt I ever will want to do IVF again. I am slowly trying to accept the fact that we may never have children but in the meantime I know I need to focus on me and my health and my happiness.
So what makes me happy? Well lots of things do, but traveling makes me happy, traveling to WDW especially. We were there 5 days before but we still missed alot. But its expensive and we just went, so in my brain I couldn't justify going again so soon. However, if I EARN it then that will be okay, right?
So originally I came up with a plan for me to lose 50 lbs and then at that point I could book my trip to Disney. I can look and plan in my head before my goal but I can't book that trip, not even a deposit until I lose those 50 lbs! I told DH my idea and he supports me 100%. He knows how much I love Disney and also knows how I hate spending money and how this will make me feel like I deserve to spend money on myself.
However I know DH is struggling with his weight too. He recently learned the cartilage in one of his hips is pretty much gone and its almost gone in his other hip and both knees. He will need hip replacements and knee replacements (he's only 37) but due to his young age and his weight he will likely need more than one in his lifetime. The doctor said the best thing he could do is to get down to a healthy weight so that his existing cartilage will last longer and WHEN he gets his replacements those too will last longer. So I asked him if he wanted to join my goal. Together we could lose 100 pounds!! That'a an entire person!!! An impressive feat that we could do together! He agreed. He will do his official weigh in tomorrow. However I want to use my latest start weight of 220 from December 1st 2012 as my start weight. I have been working hard these past 2 months and I would like them to count towards my goal. I am currently at 204.
I know the road ahead will be hard and hopefully this reward, while external, will motivate us to stay on track and make healthy eating and exercise our new way of life together. Forever.
Right now my plan is portion control and exercise. I watch calories and try to eat a single portion or less than 2. But I'm not avidly counting calories. I might start doing that again but honestly that is one thing I get sick of doing and then I stop doing it and I gain again. So I'm trying to just do portions without counting if that makes sense. Make it less like a diet as possible.
Also for exercise every morning I do floor exercises. A plank, wall push-ups (trying to work towards a real one and a wall one is the best i can do at the moment), arm circles, a wall squat and I'd like to eventually add more or change this up. I also walk the dog daily. She recently had surgery on her knee and part of her physical therapy was a daily walk for x minutes increasing the minutes every 5th day, so even when it was -30 degrees F out I still walked her at least around the block. It's still cold and snowy here but I am trying to do longer walks now that she is fully healed. Once spring hits our walks will be longer. Again I'd like to add more to this eventually but the fact that i do it EVERY.DAY. really helps and its helped me lose 16 lbs in 2 months!
DH's plan is just to eat less. He has tried to do walks with us but he walks so slow and he hurts so bad even when we just do the one block walk. I am still going to encourage him to come with us even if it means we continue our walk without him when he does the first block with us. We also have a gazelle that I got a few years ago that neither of us use but I got the heavy duty one so he could do it too (has a higher weight capacity). So hopefully one or both of us will start to use that again. It's sitting in the living room now.
That is my really long introduction. Congrats to all of you who survived it. I promise the rest of my entries will not be this long!
I welcome comments.
I, on the other hand hurt, badly the very first day! The only thing that kept me going all week was just pure inner joy. My limbs ached, my toes were blistered and every muscle in my body begged for me to just stop and sit down. But I found when I did give in and stop and sit down it made it all the harder to get up again. So while I still loved WDW and can't wait to go back. I know one thing. I must get in shape before I go again!
My entire life my weight has yo-yoed. I remember I started 'dieting' in the 2nd grade when my mom thought it was a good idea for me to start having diet soda with my happy meal. lol She was anorexic so hardly a model of health and I tended to do the opposite of whatever she did thus my issue with eating began. I used to go between 150s to 200 alot up and down. I was 130s-140s for a bit in high school but not long. I usually stalled out about 170s or 160s, get frustrated and eat my way back up to almost 200.
Then I met my DH.
I was 170s at the time....still aiming for that 'healthy weight' of 145. But DH was a big guy and he liked to eat and he liked to eat out. After our first date we spent every dinner together for several months and 95% of the time it was at a restaurant or fast food. I quickly gained weight. We married less than 2 years after and I was in the lower 200s I think (i was too afraid to step on a scale). by our first anniversary I had topped out at 240 and he was over 400 lbs! Never in our life had we weighed so much. We knew we had to do something. Dh decided to do Atkins. I decided to do what I do best, calorie count. We both lost quite a bit of weight in the next year. DH got down to 295 and I was in 190s. DH never once said I needed to lose weight. He thinks I am beautiful just the way I am. He still insists I do not need to lose weight. Then in 2011/2012 I went through several infertility treatments. After a year of treatments, hormones, pain and disappointment I was back in 220s and devastated. IVF is our only option going forward and I can't bear to face it again. I chose to go to WDW last year to try and 'get over' the ectopic and all the 'failures' so that we could 'try again'.
Well Disney was wonderful but I'm still not ready to try again and I doubt I ever will want to do IVF again. I am slowly trying to accept the fact that we may never have children but in the meantime I know I need to focus on me and my health and my happiness.
So what makes me happy? Well lots of things do, but traveling makes me happy, traveling to WDW especially. We were there 5 days before but we still missed alot. But its expensive and we just went, so in my brain I couldn't justify going again so soon. However, if I EARN it then that will be okay, right?
So originally I came up with a plan for me to lose 50 lbs and then at that point I could book my trip to Disney. I can look and plan in my head before my goal but I can't book that trip, not even a deposit until I lose those 50 lbs! I told DH my idea and he supports me 100%. He knows how much I love Disney and also knows how I hate spending money and how this will make me feel like I deserve to spend money on myself.
However I know DH is struggling with his weight too. He recently learned the cartilage in one of his hips is pretty much gone and its almost gone in his other hip and both knees. He will need hip replacements and knee replacements (he's only 37) but due to his young age and his weight he will likely need more than one in his lifetime. The doctor said the best thing he could do is to get down to a healthy weight so that his existing cartilage will last longer and WHEN he gets his replacements those too will last longer. So I asked him if he wanted to join my goal. Together we could lose 100 pounds!! That'a an entire person!!! An impressive feat that we could do together! He agreed. He will do his official weigh in tomorrow. However I want to use my latest start weight of 220 from December 1st 2012 as my start weight. I have been working hard these past 2 months and I would like them to count towards my goal. I am currently at 204.
I know the road ahead will be hard and hopefully this reward, while external, will motivate us to stay on track and make healthy eating and exercise our new way of life together. Forever.
Right now my plan is portion control and exercise. I watch calories and try to eat a single portion or less than 2. But I'm not avidly counting calories. I might start doing that again but honestly that is one thing I get sick of doing and then I stop doing it and I gain again. So I'm trying to just do portions without counting if that makes sense. Make it less like a diet as possible.
Also for exercise every morning I do floor exercises. A plank, wall push-ups (trying to work towards a real one and a wall one is the best i can do at the moment), arm circles, a wall squat and I'd like to eventually add more or change this up. I also walk the dog daily. She recently had surgery on her knee and part of her physical therapy was a daily walk for x minutes increasing the minutes every 5th day, so even when it was -30 degrees F out I still walked her at least around the block. It's still cold and snowy here but I am trying to do longer walks now that she is fully healed. Once spring hits our walks will be longer. Again I'd like to add more to this eventually but the fact that i do it EVERY.DAY. really helps and its helped me lose 16 lbs in 2 months!
DH's plan is just to eat less. He has tried to do walks with us but he walks so slow and he hurts so bad even when we just do the one block walk. I am still going to encourage him to come with us even if it means we continue our walk without him when he does the first block with us. We also have a gazelle that I got a few years ago that neither of us use but I got the heavy duty one so he could do it too (has a higher weight capacity). So hopefully one or both of us will start to use that again. It's sitting in the living room now.
That is my really long introduction. Congrats to all of you who survived it. I promise the rest of my entries will not be this long!
I welcome comments.
). I did not reapply and I should have after that, but other than that i had no issues wearing dresses. That said when I am at home during the summer I live in dresses. I have to wear pants at work so I love to slip on a sundress as soon as I get home. Besides the chafting thing after being soaked (and walking around in a soaked dress wasn't fun but I dried alot faster than DH). I also chose to wear long dresses. Shorter dresses might have been more 'revealing'. 
But no castle pics on the first day. 
But we did share a single pizza instead of each getting our own though, so that's a step in the right direction. 
I kinda kicked myself for not giving him a kiss. Earlier in the day we had a CM tell him to give me a kiss on the cheek. This time the CM just said 'how about a kiss?' and I gave him the cheek. Oh well. I was not too fond of the pics anyway. I am just way too self conscious. I think I look so HUGE in all the photos. 
I have a horrid headache anyway. I know looking at a computer doesn't help. 
This is one of my favorite pictures that I took on the safari at AK but I wish it wasn't so blurry but at the same time I kind of like it. I want to get a print but I can't decide which is best. 
And running is NOT my idea of a good time. My DD has enjoyed it, but she is the only one in the family.
