3/28/05
8:45am
--1 serving country fritatta
--1/2 serving baked french toast
--1/2 cup fresh pineapple chunks
--9 fresh strawberries
1pm
--1 1/2 cups chicken cacciatore
--1 1/2 servings turkey sausage
--1 black plum
--1 cup skim milk
I am loving this turkey sausage--it's flavorful and decadent but with hardly any calories and lots of protien!
2:45pm
--2 angel food muffins
--1 1/2 sugar free milano cookies
--1/4 cup frosted mini wheats
--1 light string cheese
So, ok, some evil snack monster came and took me over. I ate all of this while standing in front of the fridge/pantry trying to decide if I was going to go over the edge or not. Part of me really, really wanted to. I wanted to eat whatever I wanted, how ever much I wanted, of everything in sight. I almost lost it. I managed to find some junky food that I didn't even know I still had, and it was like some kind of drug. I wonder if this is what alcoholics go through. One doesn't get to 385 pounds on a few bad nutrition habits. I have a problem with food. I stood there for about 10 minutes trying to decide if I just wanted to chuck it all and dig in, and ultimately I decided no. I thought about all of the progress I've made, I thought about all the folks supporting me, I thought about how I wasn't going to get anything good out of it and how I didn't like the person I was when I overate. I thought about how disappointed and ashamed I would have been. And by the grace of God I was able to walk away relatively unscathed. This time.
Project for later: get rid of any last junky/mildly tempting foods. If I'm going to overeat, I'd much rather it be on reduced-fat Triscuits than on frozen soft pretzels and chicken patties.
4:30pm
--1 1/2 servings turkey sausage
OK--the snack monster can go away now. I think TOM is rearing its ugly head. At lest this is low-cal and has some protien. Hopefully it will hold me. I'm going to curves this evening with my friends, then I need to figure out something pretty darn low calorie for dinner. Darn the snack monster!
6:00pm
Curves. I do like that it goes by so fast...
DH still isn't home. Not sure what to do about dinner. Need something low cal, so I'm thinking it's going to be a breakfast for dinner night.
8:45pm
--2 servings Boston Market ham
--1/2 serving macaroni & cheese
--1 serving new potatoes
--1 serving green beans
--2 angel food muffins
--1 cup Grand Light strawberry ice cream
Yeah, I think TOM is coming. I was so depressed before I went to Curves. The exercise made me feel better, but I'm still on a sweet/carb bender. At least it wasn't too bad today--it looks worse than it is, calorie-wise.
Edited to add: I made it under my upper limit by 1 - count it - 1 calorie today. Tomorrow's going to be better, right?