Okay, so that was the rational update. Here's the irrational vent:
I want to blame somebody. I want somebody to be mad at. I want somebody to be at fault.
I want somebody to fix it. I want somebody to fix him. I want somebody to fix me. I want my life back.
This is what I grew up for? This is what I've done all this for? For this future?
It's wrong. It's not right. It's not supposed to be this way. I can't fix it right.
No one can fix it. Humpty Dumpty.
I shouldn't have trusted the happiness. I should have known it wouldn't last. I should have known better.
I hurt today.
I want to blame somebody. I want somebody to be mad at. I want somebody to be at fault.
I want somebody to fix it. I want somebody to fix him. I want somebody to fix me. I want my life back.
This is what I grew up for? This is what I've done all this for? For this future?
It's wrong. It's not right. It's not supposed to be this way. I can't fix it right.
No one can fix it. Humpty Dumpty.
I shouldn't have trusted the happiness. I should have known it wouldn't last. I should have known better.
I hurt today.