I am sorry that I have been AWOL for the past few days. Chaos has returned to my life once again. I feel like you guys are a little too invested in my world for me not to let you know. I don't feel like re-typing everything so I am going to copy and paste from "T"'s PTR.
~So, I went from the thought of switching our dates to being 90% sure we are going to cancel the whole thing. This has been a crap-tastic week for sure!
~Well, things in life have just gone downhill fast. We have of course been working on the financial end of the trip. No matter what discounts we get it's still a ton of money for most people. We have been working it out though. Skrimping and saving where we can and making cut backs. No big deal. We can live without things!
We found out last week that my mom went to the hospital. She didn't tell anyone and still hasn't. She is keeping secrets from her children and everything that we now know, we have overheard and read her mail to find out.
She had her urine tested and the found "m" protein. This is commonly attributed to Multiple Myeloma. Basically it is cancer of the cells inside of the bone marrow. She is seeing an Oncologist on Wednesday. They have "rushed" her out of our military network and sent her to an "outside" doctor.
She has been acting weird around us. When asked about disney she said that she isnt sure if she even wants to go. She has no idea that we know anything. With all of this, we decided that until we find out whats going on we are not proceeding with the planning. This was supposed to be a "family" trip and we don't want to go without her.
I am sure that she will tell us what is going on when she officially knows. At that point I think we can bring back up the possibility of everything. It's been rough to say the least. I'm not sure how long it takes an Oncoligist to do their jobs and figure out whats going on so I have no idea when we will know. I have no idea if we would even be able to make either of the dates we were looking at.
We haven't canceled yet. We also haven't made this paydays payment though either. Its just a tough situation to be in. I wish we could talk to her about all of this but she doesn't want us to know!
~ I am in lurk mode for now though. My mom finally "filled" us in about some of the results. She didn't go into detail though. We all told her that we will be right here with her through everything. She doesn't want to hear us right now though. I understand that. She told me this morning that she is worried and that she wants space from us all until she has answers. I told her that we will do anything she wants but to remember that we are here for her.
I am keeping up with everyones reports but, Im laying low right now. You guys can't get rid of me that easily! Love ya!!!!!!!!
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So, I went out with my mom tonight and she really started talking to me. She is in a low that I have never seen before. She asked me about how she was as a mother when we were growing up and if I have any regrets. Of course I told her the truth. She was the best mother a kid could ask for and that I have no regrets in my life. It was a rough conversation.
She has my dad going with her on Wednesday to the Oncologist. I will be at the hospital with Eric. He is finally getting the tests he needs done for his heart. With everything they have to do to him, he can't be alone. We should find out what is going on and if he can keep his career. It has been CHAOTIC to say the least.
As of this moment as I write this, We are 100% unsure about a Disney trip for 2010. As much as we don't want to disappoint the kids, we just have alot going on right now. We haven't cancelled the trip yet though. We won't do that until we know what's going on with my mom.
Thank you all so much for your support. I promise that I am still reading. I am a jealous person so reading about the plans is kind of heart-breaking to be and to be honest, I might be a little bitter!
I am still on Facebook. If you want to catch up with me thats where I am.
http://www.facebook.com/rswerock
I am not going to have them close this out yet and when I find anything out, I will let you all know ASAP. I am still hopeful that things come together.