Dan, you do what it is you need to do to survive.
If that means taking a break from camping for a while. That's okay. It's likely right now it feels as if camping is equivilent to ripping a scab off a wound. Hard for that to heal. However, that doesn't mean that at some point..you may actually find comfort in doing the things Jeff used to enjoy. That time hasn't come yet..and it will be a while before it does.
I personally, hope that you don't "fade away". Although..if you want us to stop posting in this thread, I understand that as well. I do hope you post in other threads and contribute when you feel up to it, even if it's just to say "hi". You have inspired many of us to be better parents. To love our kids no matter what, and to TELL them so. By sharing your grief with us, you've reminded us not to take for granted what is right in front of us, for in a heartbeat it can be gone. That is HUGE Dan. I hope you realize just how many people YOU have touched. I just want you to know that I appreciate that you've taken the time to share your thoughts and grief with this camping community. I know there is nothing any of us can really say that will ease your pain, because none of it will bring your beautiful boy back.
Fade from this forum..if you must(but I selfishly hope you don't). Just please Dan..for the love of God..and for the Love of Jeff..don't fade away from your family. They need you now more than ever. That little grandson needs to have a grandpa to look up to and tell him about his Uncle Jeff.
Hold on Dan..hold on very tight.