As a teacher of special needs students I can only imagine how that must feel. But, try and remember this is just a small, very small snapshot of your daughter. Try and remember all of her wonderful talents and gifts. I know my students teach me much more than I teach them. I feel they are all blessings in their own way. They give me the ability to look at life from a different perspective. But, it is okay to grieve about what is or isn't. I have had some of my students going on 7 years now and have seen parents go through many stages and each one is valid. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.